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FEBURARY 22 2005
DEAR DIAREMOMMYGOTME A NEWW NOTEBOK, THIS IS MY NEW DIARE. I STARTED KIDNURGARDEN TOODAY, I'M FIVE YEARS OLD. LOVE, RAY
DECEMEMBER 14 2005
DEAR DIARY, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY, GRAMMY AND GRAMPY CAME OVER. I GOT ME SOME ART STUFF AND BRACEYLET MAKING STUFF, IM HAPPY!! LOVE, RAY!
MARCH 15TH 2006.
I'M TURNING SIX!! SCHOOL'S BEEN NICE, I'M GETTING GOOD GRADES, I LIKE MY TEACHERS. DADDY STARTED DRINKING WHAT MOMMY CALLS "GROWN UP JUICE," APARANTLY IT KEES GROWNUPS YOUNG, BUT DADDY'S STILL OLD. HE'S GETTING VERY ANGRY THOUGH, YESTERDAY HE SLAPPED ME. HE YELLED AT ME A LOT, SAYING I WAS A BAD KID, BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER. HE'S MY DADDY, I LOVE HIM. BUT BESIDES THAT, LIFE'S FUN, MOM TAKES ME TO WORK AT THE SHELTER SOME DAYS AND I GET TO PET ALL THE LITTLE DOGGIES AND KITTIES, I WISH THEM ALL LOVELY HOMES. LOVE, RAY.
JULY 24 2008
I NEVER USED IT MUCH, INEVERTLIKEDWRITING BUT THATSALLI NTHEBOOK. I'M QUITE HAPPYWITHMYLIFE'SPROGESS. ITFEELSSWEETREADINGIT. ICANTSPELLGOODATALL, IMVERYTIRED, MGOINGTOBEDGOODNIGHTY LOVERAY
March 11th, 2007.
Everything was fine. I got off work, picked up stuff for dinner tonight, my son was turning seven in a few days so I picked up his favorite, mac & cheese, my homemade kind to be more specific. For my husband, a steak, one for me as well. Maybe a few extras, supplies for his party. Got a cake ordered at the bakery section, red velvet, his favorite. After everything I made my way home, traffic was rough, but not too bad. I got home, Ray hadn't ran in to give me a hug and rant about little things, I loved when he did that. It was eeriely quiet, too quiet.. I hated it. I knew Dan's drinking habits were bad, was used to him being quiet and passed out, either on the couch, our bed, or the bathroom floor. But Ray? Usually he's wide awake, so naturally I thought he was taking a nap or listening to music. Lord was I wrong. That's when I heard it- a slight creak of a bed. Our room. Slowly made my way upstairs after putting groceries down, getting ready to surprise Dan or Ray. No one left the room. Didn't think much of it, slowly opened our door and I almost threw up on sight. Knew Dan wasn't that good of a man, but his own son..? He was being smothered while that monster hurt him. Dan was passed out, I got Ray from underneath him, got him dressed and kept him with me rest of the night. We slept in the guest room. I'm filing for divorce soon, I'm gettting custody of Ray, I'm reporting that monster to the police.
why?